Feelings

Sometimes the only thing you want is happiness but every single time you're happy for 1 minute there's always something bad coming your way...
The only thing that you want from your other half is just loyalty, faithfulness and loving sincerely...
The last thing on our mind is getting lied by someone close to you...
Some people just dont realise what they have until their gone even though its already few times she realised but still she's not aware and appreciating what she have...
Every single day i have to go through with feelings as if she's lying to me behind my back...

As i watch a show yesterday, even though he's the only one not knowing about what her daughter did and have to find out about it some other way, but he still give in to her decision and wanted to see her happy because he made a promise to take care of her and preventing her from doing stupid mistakes...even though he gets yell at by everyone i guess people don't see what he's really trying to do..

Sometime i cant even speak in front of her cause one word can cause a lot of unnecessary problems and stress, and when i'm stress I'm always getting sick...
This sickness have been going on for about 4 days already and it usually happens at night at a specific time period...
I'm just scared that i might have some kind of disease in my body or maybe supernatural stuff that's going on in my body...

I love her so much, but does she?
Is she being truthful to me?
Is she lying to me behind my back?
How do i know she loves me?
Will she change her attitude?

I know she's not the only one to be blamed, i admit i made mistake as well cause we're human, we cannot escape from making mistakes as mistakes is part of life and our learning process to be a better person.
I'm not saying I'm better than you, there's some part that you're better and some part I'm good at too.
The important thing is sincerity in doing anything for my sake, whether there's love with what you do and are you really happy being with me?

What I'm trying to say is, if you really want this to work, please try to be more sincere, trustworthy, loving me sincerely and please please don't flirt around with guys as they might have the wrong idea about you...
If you a have a boyfriend please act like you have one, don't act as if you're single...that's why people always think negative about you even myself...
People always me this question...

Is she seeing other guys?
What have she done for you lately?
Is she sincere to you?
Can she change to be a better person?
Who is she dressing up to impress? you? or other guys?
Can she be trusted?
Is she worth your time, energy and money?
Does she calls you to know what's you're doing?
Does she pick up your phone calls fast to show that's she happy you've called?

These are some of the questions that you should look into and think about....
I seriously love you so much and I'm trying my best not to doubt your love for me...
Please try to show your love as much as you can so that people can see what you did for me...
Please give me happiness as i haven't felt that in awhile...
This way everyone including me will know much you love me and i will know what am i worth to you....
Sorry for anything that will hurt your feeling, if you could just be more patient and handle things with calmness...
Please for one moment try to understand me...

Loving you with all my heart and sincerely.

Hari Raya and Birthdays

Firstly Selamat Hari Raya eventhough its already late to wish. Been so busy with college and festive season. So didnt really have the time to blog.

What we all normally do during first day of Raya after the Raya prayers is to go visit sibling's grave. For me, i went to visit my mum and grandmum's grave. Raya is consider one of the sad day for me since i lost my mum 4 years ago 20 days after my birthday.It's been 4 years celebrating Hari Raya without her, it felt really sad.All i can do as a son is to be someone that people can be proud of.

As usual i went back to Seremban to see my dad and step's siblings for Raya. Manage to get almost 1k of green packets this year...this is considered low since i usually get more than that....the reason mostly because i was kinda lazy to go to some houses that i'm suppose to go to visit each year. Well usually there is my dad to follow us to go there but he's at seremban so can't visit during Raya time. Well since its Raya obviously there'll be lots of cookies, ketupat and rendang. All of them made by step mum and it's really delicious especially the cookies.

This month quite a number of birthdays that already passed or just around the corner.

Happy 19th birthday to Shannon. Sorry can't make it to your birthday party since i got a really big problem that day.

Happy Birthday to Su Fen.
Jeff-san your birthday coming soon edi...where you want to celebrate ?
Kok Kien yours coming too.. an old friend from high school...long time no see
Cousin Ana who is currently at Singapore for her training

Anyways that's all for now...sorry no picture too busy to get any photos

Tag....Again

I've been Tagged by Lee Gene!!!

1. What's the relationship of you and her/him ?

Good old buddies like brothers from another mother.

2. Your 5 impressions towards her/him ?

Fun
Good listener
Sometime generous
Spontaneous all the way
Can be trusted and count on

3. The most memorable things she/he have said to you

CCB or Mahai either 1 of these

4. The most memorable things she/he had done for you

Always there to go out for yumcha haha

5. If she/he became your lover, you will..

I'll kill him rather than killing myself. lol

6. If she/he become your enemy, you will..

Try to be friends again ? if not just ignore like nothing happen ?

7. If she/he become your lover, she/he has to improve on..

His vision to see that I'm a freaking guy damn it lol go get a girl

8. If she/he become your enemy, the reason is..

He didn't pay for the drinks at mamak lol

9. The most desirable thing to do on him/her is ?

Being a friend

10. The overall impression of him/her is...

One of the longest person i know since high school
and we know alot about each other
like brothers

11. How do you think the people around you feel about you ?

They think I'm cool lol nah just kidding

12. The character of you for yourself is ?

Rich, powerful and smart ( self praising )

13. On contrary, the character you hate of yourself is ?

Being quiet around the people i don't know
eventhough i'm easy to get along with

14. The most ideal person that you wanna be is ?

Nothing less than a perfect gentlemen and a great friend

that can be rely on.

15. For the people who care about you and likes you, say something about them.

Thanks for caring.

Ten people to tag!!!! Victims!!!!

1. Atika
2. King Reagan
3. Shannon
4. Shelyn
5. Sean
6. Angelyn
7. Philly
8. June
9. Jay
10. Bryan

Who is no.2 having a relationship with ?

piggy ? that's from what i see on msn personal msg

No.3 is a male or female ?

Sometime male, sometime female and sometimes both

If no.7 and no.10 were together, would it be a good thing ?

Awkward ? weird ? disgusting ?

How about no.5 and no.8 ?

Might work out i guess ?

What is no.1 studying about?

Diploma In Hotel Management
Option Food & Beverage

Is no.4 single ?

Nope, but she's far away from home

Say something about no.6 ?

A girl 1 year younger and she's quite hot.

To all that got tagged ...if you got time to do it please do it if not you still must do it. That's all for now bye.

4 days ago

Well 4 days ago started like any other day...wake up in the morning and stuff like that.

During the afternoon went out with jay,winter and ryan to ftz to play some dota.
After 2 games of dota i got a phone called from my dad.It was around 6.40pm

Dad: Where are u ?
Faiz: At FTZ.
Dad: Come back home now. Someone broke into the house.
Faiz: Okay i'll go back home.

After few mins, i reached home and saw police car already at my house. My sis was like crying cause she was at home that time with my step bro's roommate (he was sleeping and didnt realise his stuff already gone lol). I asked my sis what really happened...she said that 2 chinese guy come into the house and one of them was carrying a rambo knife which was pointing at her while the other guy went to look for stuff to steal. After they finish stealing they took my sis car keys and went off with the car. After they left, my sis quickly phone 999 to call the police. In less than 10 mins the police arrived and already started the patrol car search for my sis car. We went to the police station afterwards like at 8.40pm. When we reach there another victim which was a chinese girl went to report to the police cause she was robbed from the same guys too and was almost being kidnap by them. The police later ask her what was the plate number of the car...she was like MAV 3184 ...we were like that's my sis car ..so its the same guys then. After giving info's to the police we head back home.

3 days later, around 11 am the Inspektor Husairin(the one incharge of this case) called and said that they caught one guy and they already found the car. It was good news for us but we already bought a new viva to replace that car lol. Other than that he said that we need to come by the police station tomorrow for identification of the suspect and also for the car.

Well that's all about the incident. Today need to do the identification and also collect the new viva from perodua we fully paid it by cash....so in less than 4 days we already get it. :) if loan sure take weeks.

Apart from that....i still need to see a dentist but most of them are fully booked till after raya damn....cant get my braces done.

Well that's all about it. Stay tuned for more updates :P

Today

Today Me, Sis, Izan, Ana and Mazrina went to PKNS and SACC Mall at Shah Alam.

So the 5 of us went there to buy hari raya clothes there since some clothes are designer's made and can cost you quite alot of money. Especially like my baju melayu cost around RM 500 :). Most of us spend quite alot today for clothes only but i bought like the whole set with the sampin as well the songkok. My theme for this year is dark blue, well it was suppose to be pink but i thought nvm next year then since blue is favourite color.

While walking around the PKNS we saw this fine masterpiece of Chinese + Arab Caligraphy. Since the 5 of us appreciate arts very much. We went to have a look at their shop which have like alot of caligraphy in all shape and sizes. The best part is the writer of the caligraphy is a chinese muslim from china. He's been writing all these since 40 years ago and i can say he's quite famous since he already made alot of caligraphy for famous people like for example Tun Dr. Mahathir and some other ministers. The one that mostly do the talking is his son cause his dad cant speak malay or english and only in mandarin. The dad only come here once a year sometimes twice a year and mostly he'll be in china. The nice part is that his caligraphy is so freaking nice and its written on pure silk which i thought would be expensive but he sells for very very very reasonable price.

The one that me and Mazrina bought which only cost us around RM 50 only each...really cheap for a masterpiece like this (same as Tun Dr. Mahathir's one)

This is the man that drew all that. He did it in like 3 mins or less ...really pro. The one behind him is the one that ana and izan bought to put at their house.

Ana's one cost RM280 and she bought another 1 which spells her name...really really nice which cost another RM 120. Izan's one cost around RM 220 cause its smaller than ana's one but both without the frame cause with the frame its worth RM800..

After seeing all that went back to SACC Mall to check out alya's(my niece and yes ...i'm already an uncle lol) baju kurung for hari raya. Went to D'rias and bought like 2 for her.

Since the clock shows its already 6.30pm its time to head back home for buka puasa. Went to Thai Corner at Taipan to buka puasa. Like usual butter prawn, tom yam kung, pandan chicken, green curry and kailan oyster sauce. Woah nice right ?

Anyway that's all for now....will be back for more updates...stay tuned...

This week happenings

All i can say that this whole week is almost the same as last week.

1) Watch movies
2) Go Bazaar Ramadhan with friends
3) Shopping for Hari Raya
4) Planning to go to Bar-celona on Saturday ?
5) Playing game non-stop
6) Chatting

Most of the days, all i did was go out to watch movies and hanging out with friends either at their house or go to 7th floor at college (pool and snooker place) and not to forget playing games at home yes i know. no life. well what to do i got like 1 month+ of holidays to kill.
One of these days Ryan decided to join me to buka puasa at my house. Well its kinda weird. Since that day suddenly alot of people coming over to my house to buka puasa. Example my sis's friends, sis's bf, my friend and my cousin. More people means more food to share lol we had like a variety of food to choose from. After buka puasa, me and ryan decided to go meet up with Rachel since she called us after buka puasa. We went to college for awhile to meet up with Eugene and Kong. We played few games of pool to kill some time and decided to go to SS14 Mamak Bistro for a drink. Eugene and Kong left after few mins since they got something to do. So me, Rachel and Ryan went back to rachel's place to send her off. We all went back to our home after that. And of course playing game and chatting again....infront of the pc 24/7.

Since most of the time i got nothing better to do. I downloaded some tv series like prison break the new season, some animes and of course movies. Not forgetting the Mtv VMA since i missed it. All of that only kill some of my time. So i need something other than that to help kill some time. I read manga of anime eventhough i know i hate reading. Well what to do, at least i'm doing something.

On Wednesday went to Mcdonald's drive thru somewhere nearby my place to meet up with LG, Nana, Su fen and Sean. Just to hang out and have a lil chat among ourselves.

Mainly talked about what happen or what their experience in doing their training.
Since most of them are training at F&B side. They get paid (damn) while me and Nana are in RD dont get paid :( well actually money is not a big issue anyway.
We talked till its around 1 then decided to get playing card since su fen was talking about some card reading thingy. We all head over to LG's house with Nana's driving us there.

Well su fen's card reading thingy actually kinda true i'm pretty surprised myself. LG showed his 1/4 left of Black Label and Sean got excited to try it lol well since his blood circulation is kinda good, his face easily turn red after drinking. After that we just play big 2 among ourselves and some blackjacks. The clock shows its already 2am and they decided to head back home since its already late. Well basically that's all for Wednesday.

Thursday went smoothly like any other day. Woke up and back to the same routine. I got myself some short pants. Other than that, all i get is stress playing game. Finally i got a call from the Fresh Gear (which is the place i bought my phone and the place where i sent it for repair) informing that my phone is repair and can be picked up tomorrow. Phew after 2 long weeks with my spare phone lol.

Something to do

Instructions: Remove 1 question from below, and add in your personal question, make it a total of 20 questions, then tag 8 people in your list, list them out at the end of this post. Notify them in their chat box that he/she has been tagged.

1. At what age do you wish to marry?
- Most probably by the age of 28 the latest.

2. What is your most favourite thing to do?
- Go out, waste money.

3. If you have a close close close friend since childhood who loves to take away whatever you like, including guys/girls, and he/she always wins, will you still consider him/her your friend?
- He wouldnt be my close close close friend then. Instead he's just a close friend or maybe not so close friend.

4. What would you give up in return to eat all you want in the world and not get fat ?
- I would give up my body fats in return.

5. If you can have 1 dream to come true, what would it be?
- Being happy with whatever i'm doing

6. Do you believe you can survive without money?
- No money no talk ?

7. What are you afraid to lose the most?
- Important persons in my life

8. What do you feel like doing, right now?
- Travelling

9. If there's someone that you love, would you confess to him/her?
- Duh ? wait for Malaysia to have snow

10. List out 3 good points of the person who tagged you.
- Great friend, hardworking & fun

11 & 12. What are the requirements that you wish from your other half? What is the thing that will make you think your other half is bad?
- Being loyal and obedient
- Cheating

13. What is your ambition?
- Rich, powerful and successful lol

14. Is anyone really perfect?
- No

15. If you had a choice to be rich or happy, which one would you pick ?
- RICH !! when you're rich, you're happy lol

16. If you have a chance, which part of your character you would like to change?
- My personality

17. Who is the person that you can share all your problems with?
- Friends, family & my other half

18. How do you see yourself in 10 years time?
- Rich, powerful and successful (my favorite line)

19. What is the one thing you love about yourself?
- Surrounded by supportive friends and family

20. What kind of person you would like to meet?
- Someone who is very entertaining n trustworthy

Tagged Victims
- DH 27 lol
- Atika
- Sean
- Shae
- Philly
- Shelyn
- Joanne
- Anyone that interested to do it

Thanks for reading, hoped you enjoyed you reading. To those who have been tagged please do it lol.